By touchMy great-grandmothers had a lot of children, which wasn’t unusual for prerevolutionary Russia. During the Soviet times, this tradition was interrupted for several decades. When my own family ended up bigger than an average one in Russia, the lack of understanding of how to organize life when both parents are constantly occupied became apparent.
Right in front of my eyes, six children of different ages are growing up and changing, and none of them resembles others in character or disposition. I need to find an approach to each one of them based on their individual qualities, and sometimes I have to change my strategy of behavior and communication in the blink of an eye. I live under constant emotional pressure, always anxious for my children, their health, education, and relationship with the world around them. Sometimes, before I go to sleep, I feel like my head just can’t contain so many thoughts, and my heart — so many feelings.
When I started taking photos of my family, I noticed that at the moment of looking for a good shot I distance myself, turn off my parent function for a moment, and thus save my nerves.
Probably, this is why I almost never put the camera down.
We often look behind trying to guess how our ancestors used to build the relationship in the family, organized their everyday life, made money, what they thought about education… But time keeps moving on, and our lifestyle and needs have changed significantly.
Even if we could adopt those practices, the methods of our parents would hardly be of any use to us. More often than not, we proceed «by touch,» without knowing how to do things right and avoid mistakes.